Unfinished Caret (Saturnalia) fanart

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Unfinished Caret from Saturnalia Fan Art for Space Coyote (2005)

2005 is when depression struck hard. I was living in Gunma at the time in a sparsely furnished two bedroom apartment. There were a number of factors that contributed to this, but my 2005 spell was probably the worst of my life. I didn’t have much support, and the friends I did have I was actively cutting out of my life so they didn’t have to deal with me. Space Coyote was probably one of my best friends at the time and we chatted constantly. However, depression tells you that you don’t need friends so I said some things I really shouldn’t have. It cost me a dear friend I’ll never get back, but she was really better off without me in her life.

This particular piece was something I was working on for her just before our final conversations. I’ll keep it here as a reminder of one cost of depression.

 

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