It’s amazing how you can objectively look at your life on one hand and understand that you have it better than most, and especially when you can look around you and see how good things really are, and yet STILL have that pit in your stomach, that hopelessness and feeling that death really is better than this. I’ve been going through a lot of this recently. I have a job that I like, I’m back doing comics on the side of that, I have a great family, etc etc and still I have those fantasies where I cease to exist.
It’s beyond logic sense, and I think that’s the major stumbling block when people who have never experienced depression try to understand it. How can you have it good and still want to end it all? How can you have a life on the upswing but still lack the energy or the motivation to live it? It’s not an easy thing to grasp. It’s beyond logic. Logic does not apply to depression, and attempts to do so will lead to a failure in comprehension. That’s why it’s so difficult to describe it, because it does not make logical sense to those who haven’t dealt with it.
But getting back to the point of the comic, it just seems that no matter what, depression will always take away from the joy of living. It is always there, weighing you down mentally and physically.
The comic is here: http://www.depressioncomix.com/posts/296/