I can relate, changing around my meds now, and spending a lot of time reflecting about how I used to be (and could easily be again if I stop working on myself)
We do our best, and that’s not always enough. We started out shitting our britches and yanking people’s hair; everything that we want to become took time, effort, and some fuckups along the way.
That cringe is a good thing. It’s the signal for “not again”. It’s the thing that our brains do to mark what sets of habits lead to bad places. The body just doesn’t do “subtle” for this, so it’s like a door with a klaxon on a motion sensor. Good time to do a bit of self-inventory and find signs that you’re not that way now. Remind yourself who you are, and that you’re safe. Be thankful for who you became.
Yeah, the burden of rumination! It’s a warning sign for me. When I start thinking about the stupid things I did in 7th grade for example (yeah, I know doing that is insane, but that’s the problem, isn’t it?), I know for whatever reason, that I’m sliding downwards.
The problem with rumination, overthinking, whatever you want to call it, is that it drags you back down to depressing self-loathing. Yes, you might have been a jerk – or maybe not, and it’s just your depression lying to you again. Anything filtered through depression is going to seem lame, glass half-full (if you even have a glass) and bleak.
I have to consciously tell myself that it’s not that everything I did was wrong and therefore I’m depressed, but that I’m depressed, and therefore everything I think about is distorted.
Depression is the cause, not the result, and it’s not your fault that you’re suffering from depression. We gotta remember that.
Love your comics. Unfortunately fb has censored me and your comic because of the subject matter. fb hacked my phone. I’m prohibited from reading/posting conversations. Hope people sue fb for free speech violations. ?
Word.
Geez, too close.
Love and hate your work every single time, It Is always su uncanningly to the point
Teal Agosto bro! Just bro
Joshua Marie Roman manoooo this hit me in so many levels
I love these comics
regret is inevitable… even after you are cured ..
thanks for the upload
The good news to those shittier moments is without them you would not be the better person you are today
I can relate, changing around my meds now, and spending a lot of time reflecting about how I used to be (and could easily be again if I stop working on myself)
I still cringe about things I did in my drinking days, even after nine years of sobriety. How could I have been like that?
We do our best, and that’s not always enough. We started out shitting our britches and yanking people’s hair; everything that we want to become took time, effort, and some fuckups along the way.
That cringe is a good thing. It’s the signal for “not again”. It’s the thing that our brains do to mark what sets of habits lead to bad places. The body just doesn’t do “subtle” for this, so it’s like a door with a klaxon on a motion sensor. Good time to do a bit of self-inventory and find signs that you’re not that way now. Remind yourself who you are, and that you’re safe. Be thankful for who you became.
Love and hugs for everyone. It’s no use to beat yourself up on the past. The best is to look forward and live on.
Yes yes, I know I know. But hey, I have been there and done that too. And lived through it.
Things happen when your brain is out of balance, and it’s not like you were 100% at fault. There are just some things that are not in your control.
Yeah, the burden of rumination! It’s a warning sign for me. When I start thinking about the stupid things I did in 7th grade for example (yeah, I know doing that is insane, but that’s the problem, isn’t it?), I know for whatever reason, that I’m sliding downwards.
The problem with rumination, overthinking, whatever you want to call it, is that it drags you back down to depressing self-loathing. Yes, you might have been a jerk – or maybe not, and it’s just your depression lying to you again. Anything filtered through depression is going to seem lame, glass half-full (if you even have a glass) and bleak.
I have to consciously tell myself that it’s not that everything I did was wrong and therefore I’m depressed, but that I’m depressed, and therefore everything I think about is distorted.
Depression is the cause, not the result, and it’s not your fault that you’re suffering from depression. We gotta remember that.
Sharing.
Yeah, it’s probably better not to dwell on the past. You can’t change it anyway.
Love your comics. Unfortunately fb has censored me and your comic because of the subject matter. fb hacked my phone. I’m prohibited from reading/posting conversations. Hope people sue fb for free speech violations. ?
What a tough road, trying to accept the shitty person you’ve been, but once you do, everything will be easier. You deserve the love. ❤
Absolutely!!! Spot on!!! And where’s the prescription for forgetting stuff that doesn’t make me even more of a zombie??? x
If you’re not inclined to cringe at your past self, you’re not making progress in life.
(…Doesn’t really make your past self any less painful to remember though.)
Thank you for this. I’ve dealt with this very thing recently and it’s hard