Worse (on my end) is that I live with family who are the primary cause of my depression and suicidal feelings, so sometimes the reason I’m still up and can’t sleep the wee hours of 12 am to 3 or 4 am are the only times I have to myself.
I used to find that darkness suited my mood better than daylight. I would stay awake at night, alone and unable to sleep. Sometimes I could distract myself with old movies or reruns of Star Trek or Kung Fu, but usually I just sat there thinking about death and dying, often in the deepest, darkest part of the basement. Usually around 4 a.m. I would finally get tired and fall asleep, but the next day I would walk around and work in a semi-conscious state until after dinner, then feel almost normal for an hour or two before the cycle started again.
Decades later I still get occasional bouts of insomnia, but without the feelings of despair.
Canada Keck says
I’ve been here one too many times….
Keith Gottschalk says
Yep. And then once I finally fall asleep I want to sleep forever.
Mil says
Join the club, buddie, join the god damned club.
Winter Arcane says
My life reduced to four panels.
FML says
Every. Fucking. Night.
But my doctor put me on Seroquel recently and it now takes about 15 minutes and I am out for the night.
Adina Ryter says
Or when all you do is sleep and you’re still that tired . 🙁
Jeannie Dee says
yup.
Jsoe Eblol says
thats why i make sure to absolutely work my ass off at work to ensure KO sleep…. otherwise…
Lia R. says
*sigh* And it just gets harder from there.
Kiril Mezencev says
saaaammmmeeeee
Esmerelda Bohème says
Sleep is important for mental health. My schedule is ruined (as you can see), so no sleep for me.
Reina Maxine says
Worse (on my end) is that I live with family who are the primary cause of my depression and suicidal feelings, so sometimes the reason I’m still up and can’t sleep the wee hours of 12 am to 3 or 4 am are the only times I have to myself.
Agarax says
I used to find that darkness suited my mood better than daylight. I would stay awake at night, alone and unable to sleep. Sometimes I could distract myself with old movies or reruns of Star Trek or Kung Fu, but usually I just sat there thinking about death and dying, often in the deepest, darkest part of the basement. Usually around 4 a.m. I would finally get tired and fall asleep, but the next day I would walk around and work in a semi-conscious state until after dinner, then feel almost normal for an hour or two before the cycle started again.
Decades later I still get occasional bouts of insomnia, but without the feelings of despair.
Peter Watson says
Struggled with this for years, then discovered aprazolam knocks me out. Thank God.
Happy Beaver says
There was a moment I had to spend what felt like an hour freaking out in my bed before falling asleep.
It’s mostly gone now, I don’t know why.
Jovana Mutabdzija says
Literally!
Kako Mino says
you’re freaking exhausted…….but you can’t sleep at the same moment……………..
How confusing……………..
Zoe says
Depression didn’t lead me to sleeplessness….
Sleeplessness is the one that led me to depression…..