Its not always brain chemistry, for many people its past abuse and personal issues. There is no pill for existential despair. The chemistry argument is hell on those of us who anti depressants do not help. They want us to stop being inconvenient and go away.
Yeah, your brain is changed by abuse. I like to think of it as the difference between chemicals and wiring though. Messing with the chemicals (medication) isn’t really going to help with a wiring problem.
To be honest, I genuinely wonder if I will ever experience joy again. Blissed out, grinning ear-to-ear, “best day of my life” joy. I can’t even remember the good things that have happened in the past, so I’ve lost hope in the future. Even when great stuff happens, I’ll still feel terrible and won’t even remember it properly.
I know what you mean. It’s been over 20 years since I had a major depressive episode, but there are still some emotions for which the dial doesn’t go all the way up to 10 anymore. For instance, I no longer feel joy, excitement, enthusiam, or euphoria, but I can feel pleasure, anticipation, contentment, and satisfaction. The emotion of fear seems to be gone altogether.
I don’t think depression ever completely goes away, but it is possible to break its hold over your life.
I take no from people too personally. I love people so hard i expect them to automatically say yes when i want and need something, then feel rejected when they don’t. I know I’m being unrealistic but it brings on irritability then depression.
This makes me think about the nights when I was a kid and it was to hard to sleep cause tomorrow was exciting. Xmas, a friend’s, birthday, release of a Harry Potter book….
I’m afraid I’ll never feel that again, cause I still have trouble sleeping, but it’s because of fear.
joyinwinter says
Neurochemistry. That’s why.
Dana W says
Its not always brain chemistry, for many people its past abuse and personal issues. There is no pill for existential despair. The chemistry argument is hell on those of us who anti depressants do not help. They want us to stop being inconvenient and go away.
joyinwinter says
To a degree, abuse is brain damage. You’re right, of course. I’m one of the people that hasn’t really been helped by antidepressants.
I guess “neurophysiology” would be a more accurate catch-all.
Viri says
Yeah, your brain is changed by abuse. I like to think of it as the difference between chemicals and wiring though. Messing with the chemicals (medication) isn’t really going to help with a wiring problem.
Mikael Dahlqvist says
Yeeeeeep. Same thing going on over here.
Stress Management Techniques says
+1 Cool thanks
Noelle Diane Johnson says
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Jingles says
To be honest, I genuinely wonder if I will ever experience joy again. Blissed out, grinning ear-to-ear, “best day of my life” joy. I can’t even remember the good things that have happened in the past, so I’ve lost hope in the future. Even when great stuff happens, I’ll still feel terrible and won’t even remember it properly.
Agarax says
I know what you mean. It’s been over 20 years since I had a major depressive episode, but there are still some emotions for which the dial doesn’t go all the way up to 10 anymore. For instance, I no longer feel joy, excitement, enthusiam, or euphoria, but I can feel pleasure, anticipation, contentment, and satisfaction. The emotion of fear seems to be gone altogether.
I don’t think depression ever completely goes away, but it is possible to break its hold over your life.
Luca Bergamasco says
Depression in a nutshell
Bran Schaffer says
I can relate to this all too well.
Cerri Dwenn says
Too familiar.
Stress Management Techniques says
Awesome:D
Jeannie Dee says
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FNM says
I was in a good mood until I read this reminder. I seriously need to stop coming here…
Laura P. Schulman, MD, MA says
I’m here
Stress Management Techniques says
Absolutely love everything related to Anxiety
Sweet Tea says
I take no from people too personally. I love people so hard i expect them to automatically say yes when i want and need something, then feel rejected when they don’t. I know I’m being unrealistic but it brings on irritability then depression.
Dominic says
*Sigh* All the freaking time 🙁
Danique Faber says
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Fixie says
This makes me think about the nights when I was a kid and it was to hard to sleep cause tomorrow was exciting. Xmas, a friend’s, birthday, release of a Harry Potter book….
I’m afraid I’ll never feel that again, cause I still have trouble sleeping, but it’s because of fear.