I associate too many negative behaviours and opinions as a part of “myself”. I’d like to change, but I just don’t feel like I will be the same person. I especially don’t want to be like “everyone else”, which is one of those negative opinions. The shitty thing is, as much as you can break down the faulty logic behind your actions and emotions, the logic doesn’t stop feeling “correct” for you. I guess I just have to push myself and correct my behaviours.
I won’t take meds because the me I am now may be depressed and struggling, but I fought damn hard for years to get to this me. I learned the inner dimensions of this me via shoveling out years of PTSD, dissociation, and the general crap that comes with being the Golden Child of an alcoholic. Sometimes I don’t like this me very much, but its MY me, dammit. I don’t know if I would want the me that meds might provide.
It makes sense from the inside. From the outside, I dunno.
This very perceptive strip has made me cry. I’m not sure that I even know myself (or want to in case I don’t like who I am). This is pathetic… 40 years under treatment and I’m still the same.
There is another story one can read in this strip, considering that this character also features in strip #165 … A friend of mine has been “treated” in such an institution in order to “cure” her homosexuality when she was a teenager. It didn’t exactly make her a happier person, not at all …
If you’ve endured a lifetime with depression, it tends to become your identity. What am I without it? What does being better feel like? What if I can’t acclimate to that new state of being? It’s pretty backwards, but a healthy state of being is well worth trying on. We find our identity where we dwell most often.
hi, I’m one of the many depressed persons and got inspired when I came across to your DEPRESSION COMIX. If you haven’t noticed I added lots of cups of coffee for you to keep going. Seeing your DC reminds me of my depressions way back in time which I gathered them into drafts. It haunts me till now and it’s getting too much! I’m just starting to release them out one by one but I don’t really know if this helps… any suggestions?
Thank you for the cups of coffee! I don’t really know what to say to help but I think if releasing the drafts helps you, you’ll know. Myself, I would only look at old depressing things if I know I made some progress, and I can look at them more clinically and with some distance. Without the distance I would find them triggering. I wish you good luck and again thanks for the coffee.
thanks for the reply… thought you won’t notice it cause you have lots of followers to reply… really appreciate it. I guess you’re right. I’ll try harder this time…
This person might have also had really crappy experiences with the mental health system in the past and they want to hang onto the idea that somewhere *could* be helpful without having that shattered, too.
Sean Hantz says
Could it be that I’ve become happy in my misery?
Philip Robinson says
I’ve been feeling this one for a loooooong while now. ._.
jbthazard says
I had that feeling once. Cast it aside as fast and as hard as you can.
Luca Bergamasco says
Best. Explanation. Ever.
Güneş Genç says
I associate too many negative behaviours and opinions as a part of “myself”.
I’d like to change, but I just don’t feel like I will be the same person. I especially don’t want to be like “everyone else”, which is one of those negative opinions.
The shitty thing is, as much as you can break down the faulty logic behind your actions and emotions, the logic doesn’t stop feeling “correct” for you. I guess I just have to push myself and correct my behaviours.
San Sdn says
This is way too real.
Jenny Islander says
I won’t take meds because the me I am now may be depressed and struggling, but I fought damn hard for years to get to this me. I learned the inner dimensions of this me via shoveling out years of PTSD, dissociation, and the general crap that comes with being the Golden Child of an alcoholic. Sometimes I don’t like this me very much, but its MY me, dammit. I don’t know if I would want the me that meds might provide.
It makes sense from the inside. From the outside, I dunno.
LaShaun Hardy-Harris says
#TheStruggleIsReal
Natália Guimarães says
This is me right now.
Natália Guimarães says
This page goes right on the feels :S
Gill Birch de Sebastián says
This very perceptive strip has made me cry. I’m not sure that I even know myself (or want to in case I don’t like who I am).
This is pathetic… 40 years under treatment and I’m still the same.
Jenny Islander says
Turn it around: 40 years in need of treatment and you’re STILL HERE AND BREATHING.
Gill Birch de Sebastián says
Thank you for that reminder.
Madeleine says
There is another story one can read in this strip, considering that this character also features in strip #165 …
A friend of mine has been “treated” in such an institution in order to “cure” her homosexuality when she was a teenager. It didn’t exactly make her a happier person, not at all …
Jose Martz says
Would you do a strip about Bipolar disorder?
th says
I kind of relate to this. But the worst part is that I’m not at all sure that it WILL help. And then I’d have betrayed myself for nothing.
almanyo says
How did u get that theme? I’m a beginner, so I need 2 know how 2 get themes!
clay says
This is Divi, a theme by Elegant Themes. You can buy it here: http://www.elegantthemes.com/gallery/divi/
Recon says
Do it and they take away your rights, or at least they want to.
The Moon says
If you’ve endured a lifetime with depression, it tends to become your identity. What am I without it? What does being better feel like? What if I can’t acclimate to that new state of being? It’s pretty backwards, but a healthy state of being is well worth trying on. We find our identity where we dwell most often.
Mizt2ree says
hi, I’m one of the many depressed persons and got inspired when I came across to your DEPRESSION COMIX. If you haven’t noticed I added lots of cups of coffee for you to keep going. Seeing your DC reminds me of my depressions way back in time which I gathered them into drafts. It haunts me till now and it’s getting too much! I’m just starting to release them out one by one but I don’t really know if this helps… any suggestions?
clay says
Thank you for the cups of coffee! I don’t really know what to say to help but I think if releasing the drafts helps you, you’ll know. Myself, I would only look at old depressing things if I know I made some progress, and I can look at them more clinically and with some distance. Without the distance I would find them triggering. I wish you good luck and again thanks for the coffee.
Mizt2ree says
thanks for the reply… thought you won’t notice it cause you have lots of followers to reply… really appreciate it. I guess you’re right. I’ll try harder this time…
Anon says
This person might have also had really crappy experiences with the mental health system in the past and they want to hang onto the idea that somewhere *could* be helpful without having that shattered, too.
jackmarten says
sometimes treason is the only solution